Amboy, Illinois

Sometimes I miss my old life. I miss being little and the everyone knows everyone vibe you get from living in an extremely small town. The town I group up in is Amboy. When I was a child it felt like there was so much to do even though the only thing Amboy had to offer was a pharmacy, a bar, a few restaurants, and a bank. All the neighborhood kids would run around playing with eachother, climbing trees, and going on long walks. I feel like I belong in a small town. I'm more comfortable and it feels more like home. I've made several great friends here in Sterling but everything is so much different here. There's more cliques and drama in my opinion. Social gatherings are more likely to end up in a fight and girls ain't shit but hoes and tricks. In Amboy everything seemed so much easier. You didn't have to worry about what kind of car you drove or what kind of house you lived in. No one cared. They based their opinion of you not based on material things but on how you act and socialize with others. If one person doesn't like you here then you have a whole group of people who don't like you but in Amboy if someone doesn't like you then you have others telling that person that they're stupid and to get over it. Sure it's not perfect and can be really boring at times but I miss it terribly. I'm sure every town has its share of drama but I can't help but feel that everything seems ten times worse in Sterling. There's no room for error here. You make one mistake and that's what you're remembered by forever. That's the problem here. People aren't friendly. They care too much what others think and quite frankly I'm sick of living under a shell and being too afraid to be myself. It surprises me how many mean and rude people are concentrated in one area. Maybe it's not that. Maybe it start with one person. You see someone be a complete bitch to someone so you think it's okay. You see someone make a rude comment about someone appearance which causes you to change your opinion about it to. We are all too easily influenced here. In Amboy you could wear sweats every single day and throw your hair on top of your head and no one would say anything. People have more respect for you there. They're all a bunch of rednecks (the good kind) and they just don't care about anything but having fun and being happy! I miss bonfires and going in old barns. I miss walking to dance class and sunday school because I lived only a couple blocks away from the important things. Everything was within reach and everything seemed more carefree. Why can't this town be like that?!